If I had one Christmas Wish, I would wish that all of my family would be magically transported here to Phoenix. Christmas is always a two-toned holiday. I love the celebration of Christ's birth, of good food, lots of love, Christmas music and lights everywhere. But most Christmas' I am away from my family and that is tough. As I am famous for I put away the feelings so that they aren't at the surface but at times they appear at the brim sulking away. And try as I might every Christmas Eve that I am not with my family little itty bitty tears appear. Sadness blankets me. Missing swells my heart. But tonight as my tears form I remind myself that it's ok to feel these feelings. It's ok to be missing. Missing those that you love is good. In fact it's great! It reminds me of how much I love and adore my family and how awesome they are and suddenly I am comforted again. I feel the peace again that I usually have. And a hug from my Rich always helps too. :)
It's days like today that I am so thankful that I have this blog. It's a safe place for me (what, in public??) to express my feelings and through words celebrate the joys, soften the pains and examine life's quirky ways. I enjoy the latter the most if you haven't already observed. ;-)
So now you. What about you? If you had one Christmas wish, what would it be?
3 comments:
I would have Will here. That is my only wish this year. He called last night and it was wonderful to talk to him as I did "Mom on Christmas even" things. Felt almost like he was hear. If just for a moment.
So this year- I feel your pain, wholly.
Thank you for note Leaner. In some ways it sounds like we had similar xmas eves.
I wish I could have my family here.. I shared the same tears especially when I called to say Merry Christmas and they were all together except me :(
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