Hello stranger

Oh wait - the stranger is actually ME. :) I think this may have been one of the longest stretches of non-posting. And I know what you're all thinking....that's it's because that I've been sooooo busy with wedding planning. Well the awful truth is that I haven't been busy but just LAZY. LAZEE. LAY-ZY. Very lazy about posting!!

I know it was all a farce, right? You probably thought that I've been slaving away! I mean we have been up to stuff but so far it's going really smoothly. Really smoothly. T-14 days. Phew. Two weeks. Where did the time go, huh? Just where did it go? I remember when it was a month ago and suddenly we're 2 weeks away. Wow. Just wow.

We don't really have much left to do. We need to meet with the hotel one last time, meet with the DJ, check in with the florist. Need to write our speeches. Oh - need to make that darn chuppah! That thing will be the life of me - I swear! Oh we also need to print out and fold the programs. ps - OfficeMax is incredibly cheap if you're a good DIYer. I want to make some candle holders. Hmm...need to get my hair dyed again. Side note - it's amazing how fast my hair grows. Oh and one last dress fitting.

The nice thing is that I am now off of work for the next 3 weeks. 2 weeks to spend with my family and get final prep done and RELAX. :) And then 1 week off after the wedding to decompress and hopefully get away somewhere. We've procrastinated in finding a cabin up North so we'll see if that really pans out. Rich seems to think that we can have our 'get-a-way' right here in our own house. Of course....I have other ideas!

I have tiny anxiety about not being at work. Not that I'm worried about things being taken care of because I have a very dependable crew but that I'll have a piece of me missing for a couple weeks. Something to structure my days, keep me busy, something that I'm passionate about, yada-yada-yada. But of course - you can't really beat 3 weeks off. :) I think my boss might be worried that I won't come back because he keeps telling me to not forget how awesome work is. But he has nothing to worry about. I'll miss my work family these next couple of weeks and am jazzed about coming back. There'll hopefully be some cool changes to come back to as well! Very cool in fact!

So far I'm not feeling nervous. Not feeling overwhelmed. Probably more so than anything - excited and eager to party the night away with family and some pretty AWESOME friends. I'm thrilled about our song list for the party. I went through and picked out a load of crowd favorites. Knowing my luck, I'm probably going to be the idiot with a beer in hand, dancing solo on the dance floor, screaming the words at the top of my lungs! Haha! More so than anything though I feel pretty calm. I don't know how - seriously don't know how. I'm not doing any yoga or meditation or any tap dancing either. I just feel this calm energy flowing through me. Once in a while I'll take a look at our to-do list and think 'holy crap' but then it goes away real fast as I realize that it's just one thing at a time. :) And most importantly - I simply cannot wait to be a married woman. Can't wait to be up there with my Richie. I hope I don't do the ugly cry. I did that on our engagement night and my was that embarassing and awkward! Thankfully it was only Rich and the doggies but still....it wasn't pretty folks. :) And then I cried out of the blue at the Chicago bridal shower which let me tell you was WIERD because I hardly knew anybody there. I think it was more so because I was thinking so much about my family and how they couldn't be at the shower but still...I lost all composure and again it wasn't pretty.

Sigh. I'm rambling aren't I? I guess that's what you get when I don't post for a while! Just a rambling post. Ramble, ramble, ramble. Blah, blah, blah. :) The next couple of weeks will most likely be quiet from my end. My little sister (a.k.a. piglet) and my folks are flying in on Sunday night so I'm not sure there will be time to blog and there will probably be a struggle over computer usage too. :) ps - piglet - if you can fix our desktop it's ALL yours to use.

So if I'm not posting (which watch now, i'll probably be on here multiple times) I'll be sure to post the link of our photographer's blog after the wedding as she usually uploads a preview of pictures. Hopefully she doesn't catch the 'ugly cry'. (wink)

Love ya guys,
~k
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