Blogging

Urgh, as you may have already seen...I have clearly not been in the blogging mood.  Unfortunately, I don't think this is just a funk.  The straw that nearly broke the camel's back was losing a long post with pictures about the greatness of my friends.  One day it was saved in draft mode, the next day it had vanished.  I felt so dejected and haven't blogged since.  Until day.

I really want this blog to be about my life journey.  I want to be able to use blog2print and actually make this in to volumes that I can look back one day and read.  So that my kids can know who I was as a twenty-something now moving in to my thirty-somethings.  With the gaps in writing over the past couple of months, I'm not sure that I'll be able to continue this endeavor!  Isn't that sad?

I feel like I'm on the verge of somebody passing away.  I feel like I'm trying hard to save this little blog of mine but I'm not sure what I'm fighting for or if I really want to continue it.  Urgh.  I'm stuck.  I'm hoping that writing about this will propel me in one direction or the other. 

In the mean time, I should tell you that life is good!  Nothing new to report really.  Rich and I have been really good.  :)  Work is the same.  Summer is nearly here so my garden is starting to disintegrate.  Taz the dog is the same.  I've been giving him trims lately at the house.  He looks quite shaggy but at least he doesn't have to go to the groomers!

Shila...well she's been a bit troublesome lately in terms of her health.  Took her out to play ball a couple weeks ago and she began limping quite severely on her left hind leg...the same leg as her ACL replacement.  The limping had got better but I was worried so I took her in to the vet.  $$$ later the x-rays showed that her knee is fine albeit arthritis but she came home with a right hip dysplasia diagnosis and also round worm!  I have to find her Senior food with joint support as well as start her on Omega 3.  She just started a new glucosamine regimen as well.  Thankfully surgery for the hip is the last option.  The vet wants to try supplements and other medications (even laser therapy - oooh, snazzy!) before surgery.  Thank goodness for that.  Right now she's resting after getting dental work done today.  I feel bad for her.  She's sleeping very deeply (almost snoring).  Whenever she comes out of anesthesia she randomly whines and wakes herself up.  Poor baby. 

I've been having lots of 'my dog is getting old' moments the past several days.  The vet talked about all of the things we need to watch out for now that she is 7 years old and technically a Senior.  Sunday night, I laid on the floor with her and we just looked in to each others eyes for a half hour, hugging.  She loves to put one of her front legs on me.  :)  In our little bonding time, there were tears.  I have to admit that it's been quite depressing as I realize how little time I have left with my boo but I also have to buck up and continue to make each day the best day for both of us!  I'm coming out of it and thankfully my hubby reminds me how silly I can get.  :) 

I don't think you can really know what it's like unless you're an animal lover and have (or have had) an animal.  Prior to Shila, I know that I didn't really get it.  I don't see Shila as a dog.  I mean...don't get me wrong.  I realize that she's an animal but she has such the personality.  So does Taz.  They literally are part of our family and are our babies.  I know that the love for human children (had to clarify) will be greater than the love we have for our dogs, but still...the relationship and bond I have with Shila is just so great.  She truly is my sister, my best friend and my daughter all rolled in to one.  She is my boo.

Sigh.  I feel depressed now!  Arghhhh! 

Ok so hopefully soon I will figure out what I'm doing with this blog.  I sometimes wish that the editing box was formatted differently.  I just don't find it very appealing to use any longer.  I am almost tempted to switch over to wordpress.  So hello blogger...please let it be known that I think the way we enter posts should be changed!  I want a bigger box to write in to.  And I will gladly send you prototypes if you want!  (We'll see if they respond).

Peace out,
~k